| Walk away if you want to it’s ok, if you need to you can run, but you can never hide From the shadow that’s creeping up beside you There’s a magic running through your soul But you can’t have it all Whatever you do Whatever you do There’s a magic running through your soul Two steps behind |
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People might think "how come I can be reborn?"…
haha… Even I, myself also dunno abt this… But I feel I had been pass thru all the darkness… I can see the light of hope in front of me…
[Let go] is kinda hard for some people… but I can tell you that it is the only choice for some case…
[Sacrifice] is kinda stupid… but doesnt mean you’ll lost something, on de other hand, you gain…
[Cry] is kinda sad action… you may see the rainbow after that…
[Die] is kinda peaceful… you confirm lost everything which is important/not, including urself..
[create blog] is kinda bored… but you may get a lot of "life" sharing from others…
Life is a games of choice, every single little choice make count… Dun waste any chances, dude…
[ignore] - is de gud way for getting away from sumone…
[quiet] - is de best way to think of solution
[care] - is de most suitable way to cure us
[love] - complicated & unfair
** Practise all above items to seek to sucess in life.
Re-confirm -> Valid & not conflict
"Confirmation" always play a important role in daily life. I am confuse on the relationship between Angel & I. Sometime so real, sometime like fairly tales…
I love Angel, but I dun feel the same from her.You use to b Angel (my sweet-heart) but I dun seem to b her guardian at all. Once I heard from Angel that nobody can force her todo anything which she do not want to do. But these few days, Angel keep on accompany her senior from morning until night (even until morning again)… She keep on telling me that isn’t her will to accompany him… "So wat? You still there at tat time! wat de point tell me all the excuses…" Yes, I felt resentful of rivalry in love. Think abt tis, I’m just a simple devil jr.
Re-union –> being reunited
It should be a happy activity… Yes, I’m happy… I scream out loud when I call her back…. "Angel I love You!"
20.Nov.2006 (Sat)
I decide to have a long vacation to other planet to settle down myself… These few days, I kept on thinking on what happen on past few days… I understand the situation well, I knew Angel have no choice on this issue, she have todo whatever been told… coz, he is the Senior Angel there… I understood, I fully support Angel decision…
But, My heart isn’t feeling well… Maybe this some kind which Human call "Jealous"… I (devil) can not be together with Angel, this is fact… I should be happy when Angel have somebody to take care her… But, this Senior just always take advantage on her… She just keep on telling me "let me handle it, you have to understand my feeling as well" whenever I decide to eliminate that senior…
Arrhhh… I’m tired… My heart can not take it anymore… I need to rest…
Sad,
S A LAN TAN
17/Nov 06′ Friday
I goto work as usual, as normal I try my best to ruin other people life [Devil's job description]… I think about her (Angel) but I don’t know whether to call her or not, even sms… I really wish to know what she doing now… Tomorrow, Heaven will have a annual party which my little angel will attend too (of course I’m not in the invitation list, who care?)… few days ago, she told me that she have a senior angel come from HELL (What? from hell got promotion to heaven?? wat da heck?)… that fellow don’t have a proper attire for that party, so he request my little angel to help him out of picking up the best suit (Angel,all wearing the same uniform, what to choose some more?can’t understand…) On that night I call my little angel thousand of time, but no respone at all… then Only I know about she went out with that "Senior Angel" the next day…
This is the 1st time I have such kind of feeling… I do not understand why? but I know, as long as I live in HELL, she won’t be mine…
Err… nothing todo… sleep…
Devil always talk with Angel thru phone call [power by HELL & HEAVEN Inc.]… They also sms each other to share about their feeling… Their relationship is so closely tide-up…
But Devil still feel uncomfortable… he feel that they are so close during chatting on phone/sms… but he feel he is far apart from Angel when he can’t reach her by phone/sms… The feeling make Devil confuse… He always ask himself "Why? This is weird… She is there for me, but I don’t really have that feeling…Err…" Question…Question… fill up his mind… This is the 1st time that Devil can’t sleep at night [mostly devil won't sleep at night, this one is special edition]… he keep on seek for the answer…
Suddenly, a voice appear in his ear… "Stupid, if everything must have an answer for it… then it is meaningless for you to go after it… Sometime, a lot of things can’t be answered. LOVE is one of them… If you can explain why you love a person then I can tell you that your love towards that person is not enough… Love can’t be explain… that’s why it is consider as miracle of life"
Devil knew that is the voice of God…
[In this world, we need god's guidance to complete most of the task... not only you, devil also need it]
16.11.06 thursday (night without dream)
Devil love Angel very much… he willing to sacrifice his pride to love Angel… Even though he will be alone when he decided to be with Angel… He still feel happy as long Angel beside him… Sometime, he think he might become back "Angel" again [as per christian said "Devil is kinda fallen angel"]
But the relationship between Angel and Devil do not go well… Angel always surrounded by many other angel most of the time… & is not easy for Devil to meet with angel… [Devil can't step into the holy place]… Devil only can use the modern technology to contact Angel such as Email, sms, & etc… Everytime, Devil receive Angel sms/email, he feel gay…
Problem is Devil always find difficulties to contact Angel… coz, Angel do not surf net often, & her phone always engage with others calls… or always running out of battery… Angel always tell Devil that she will find a time to come over to HELL to meet with Devil… and Devil always looking forward for the day to come…
Day after day… Devil think that Angel can live life happier without him… So, he decided to leave… to drown back into HELL’s gang…
Voice from HELL
Today, Devil off day & he go to surf net… he found a interesting item called MSN… he register himself and started to chat with other… he try to give advice to others… haha… hopefully this time he would screw-up the thing again lo…
Then he found a girl with a message like this… he felt sad…
"不得不承认..对你的思念..从来没有停止过..我们的相遇..我相信绝对是缘分..并不是偶然的..但是..你根本不重视我们之间的感情..真的很失望..很想重新拥有你..真的很想..可是我知道..我的世界..不会再有你了..永远都不会再有你.."
He can’t understand why so many unfair issue in this world, and so many problem on relationship…
He is glad that he is Devil not human…
A day trip in MSN,
Devil…
